It wasn’t me that you wanted, it was just “someone.” You said you missed “waking up next to someone, having someone around just to hang out with and talk to.”
You also said, “If it weren’t for you, I wouldn’t have prolonged my stay here by two months,” to which I responded, “But you wasted it, making promises and breaking them. You should have moved right away, and maybe this wouldn’t be so complicated.”
Relationships shouldn’t be complicated. It’s about two people who care about each other, wants the other to be happy, and will work together for a successful relationship. As with any relationship, not just the romantic kind, it takes communication, compromise, and understanding.
None of that existed with him- he never told me how he was feeling about any particular situations, something I may have done that he didn’t like, or opened up about his personal life and any problems that he was having with friends and coworkers. He would dismiss any and all efforts I made to plan something for the weekend, whether it was hang out with his friends, catch a movie, make dinner together, go out to the bars… He would leave me hanging, waiting around for him to come back home. So many nights, after a long day or week of work, I’d be at his place waiting for him- “I’ll be home in half an hour, I’m just going to finish my last beer.” Then an hour passes, and then two more, and it’s already 1AM. He had no regard for me, and that hurt me so much. As for ‘understanding’ he never made any effort to understand why I felt such negative feelings… He’d just feed me some excuse as to why plans changed, how he didn’t mean to disappoint me.
Those two months he stayed here was just a broken record of our previous “relationship.” And he’s in North Carolina, in a new place, where he can start over. I’ll be here for a few more years, at least until I finish school. And until then, I’ll be going to places that we used to go to, and be reminded of things we used to do, and possibly run into his friends at the beach or at the bars, and then they’ll talk to me about him.